Small Fractures
I noticed that my ankle started to ache around a month ago. It wasn't a sharp pain; it was dull and annoying. I was hopping along instead of walking. Whenever my friend and I worked out, I'd feel completely okay. But when I sat down to cool off, the pain would return. Finally, last week, I gave in to an urgent care visit. Low and behold, I had a lateral fracture. I have no idea how long I had it. I have no idea of the moment it happened. But it happened. If I would have attended to it when I first felt the pain, I would have a healed ankle at this point.
Whew, this thing has hit me on a spiritual level. God has shown me a parallel between my ankle and how I have handled my heart. We all experience traumas in life. As we continue to live, we will continue to go through things. That's just the way it is. How we get through it depends on how we handle our hearts. Do we neglect to address the issue and prevent our hearts to heal? Do we allow it to linger and "heal" improperly? Ignoring an injury can result in allowing it to worsen or to heal improperly. That same thing happens when our hearts are broken and spirits are hurting. Are you allowing yourself to heal? Are you giving yourself the grace to leave it (whatever the broken thing is) alone, so that God can heal you? The real issue is that we don't want to wait. We don't want to wait out the time needed for the work to happen. Our human minds desire instant gratification. Waiting doesn't give us that satisfaction.
Believe me when I say that being patient is a struggle for me. I had a sweet friend of mine suggest that maybe this period of slowing down for my ankle is a dual season of healing for me. She stated that she believed that God wants to do something but I just needed to slow down and allow for Him to work. I rolled my eyes. My homegirls are always coming for my little edges with their epiphanies and messages from The Lord. Some areas in my life are just a hot mess. There are some people that I still have to truly forgive, including myself. There are some experiences that I have to CHOOSE to overcome daily. I have to choose to heal. I have to choose wholeness. So if that means taking a break to let the torn/broken/hurt areas heal, then I am willing to take that time
Some of the smallest injuries can cause long lasting pain.